A simple life?

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Suddenly remembered this from a Father's sermon. Humility is being grateful. Past week and days have reali been tiring. Spiritually tiring and mentally tiring. The heart reali feels like its being stretched and pulled and being weighed down so much. The brain has also been worked so much. !@$!TFSDFJKSNFJLAjf

Who can reali give love but God? Reali who? Who put the ppl who shower u wif love in yr life? God. But what u do? U sin. U hurt Him. U hurt yrself. U hurt the ppl around u. Reali need to tok man. It seems that the ppl who u can share yr problems with are so few. I'm reali grateful for having ppl like T, sam and jeremy. These are the ppl whom i least want to hurt. But it seems the closer u are to some1 the easier to hurt. I always have this in mind Your loved ones always get hurt. Then y have close friends? But they are reali who we need and are blessed with.

Jesus, my brain is reali very tired. My heart is reali very heavy. Please help me.

But amidst all this, i duno how to describe them but shit, there are still things to be happy for. O lvls over liao! Going melaka soon! Everyone around seems happy! So many things to thank God for.

[ Servant of God ] | 4:46 AM |

Monday, November 08, 2004

Damm sian. Can't find my D2 cds. Its either somewhere in my house or i lent it to someone. Anyone who has my d2 and LOD disc and is reading disc can dun mind sms me? Suddenly have the urge to play again. Com is making me dulan. Can't play any new games coz of stupid directx. Playing warcraft 3 online is song man! Especially when the other ppl dun understand wad u're saying haha

The world is making me sian. It reali forces u to be who we shouldn't be. Rude. Uncompassionate. Unfriendly. Self-centered. Unkind. Unforgiving. Frooking sian.

[ Servant of God ] | 8:12 PM |

Thursday, November 04, 2004

Neither here not there. Dammm sian. Feel reali screwed up the past few days. Os. Sick. Sin. Sian. Reali wana drink man. I'm reali sorry guys for the way i acted the past few days.

Who am i? I duno. I reali duno. Screwed up.

[ Servant of God ] | 10:11 PM |

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Reali duno wad to say but dieee haha gona take my 1st paper later.. Sian. Trust in God. Humble yourself. Acknowledge your sins, feel sorry for them. God loves you. Stay strong. Pray whenever you have bad thoughts no matter how difficult it is or how far u feel from Him when u pray.

[ Servant of God ] | 6:31 AM |

Monday, November 01, 2004

Once again, i've done it. Not having enough sleep reali drives yr brain a little bonkers. Damm sian actually. What you get after sinning? Nothing. Nothing good. U get guilty, emotional, yr character becomes worse, yr attitude becomes worse, thinking that u've already sinned, sinning again is like nothing. Its like: 'I already sin liao, aiyah nvm sin again still the same.' Its not the same man. You become worse. Character. Attitude. All become worse.

But remember, God is here always for you. Acknowledge your sins, feel sorry for them. Confess your sins, don't feel guilty. Feel sorry. Guilt has reali driven me to feel so low. Feel as if i don't deserve a thing, making things difficult for myself. For wad? Trust in God, He loves you.