A simple life?

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Priorities, priorities. Beginning to see and understand whats mine now. Only thing is to dare to act on it. Read in a frens blog. She's doing something thats right, studying hard. But thinks that she's neglecting her frens and afraid that after all the studying and not being able to meet her frens, she will lose them. What i feel is do what's right now, true frens if there's such a thing now will always be there. There will not be many, maybe 1 or 2 if lucky got more. Guess that's the way it is. Now my turn. Kong kong. Going to hospital is taking up so much of time and energy. By the time come back at night super shag liao. Would i dare say no at times when people ask me out? If early supper like 1 ok no problem, but if drag until super late, can is can but the next day i wan to go hospital and be fresh. Liddat how? Guess if i noe its gona shag me out the next day gotta juz say no. Kinda same problem eh. Onli different scenario. Frens i believe the ones which will stay close to you and be able to understand you will be damm little, treasure them.

[ Servant of God ] | 10:20 PM |

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Suddenly missed the times with emily. Going orchard. Loboing at the place outside cine. Walking around aimlessly. Going to bedok. Early morning going to her place and wait for her to get ready. Taking 25. Feel super shag when reach home. Every nite talking to her for a short while. Having supper at 85. Hua shen tang yuening. Doing the visual advertising. But onli when u get to noe a person well den u will see their true colours. But shouldn't dwell so much on the past if not will haf screwed up thoughts. Learnt a few good lessons after the times spent wif u. Thank God for this 'experience'.

[ Servant of God ] | 3:07 AM |

Monday, April 11, 2005

Duno y feel so down now. Don't think its because of not getting tattooed. More rather attending ah bah's funeral. Duno y tho we not close when watching the coffin going into the burning ting felt super sad. Feel its damm bloody inhumane. But dis kinda ting oso bo pian. They say 1 we cannot say 2. Over liao so forget abt it.

[ Servant of God ] | 10:33 PM |

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Hate to say dis but things are kinda screwed up. Ah bah passed away. Kongkong cannot walk. T wana get a maid. Attitude towards ppl getting screwed up. Tinking of rubbish. Wad a weakling.

Used to tink like everything for frens. Now realised that family is the most important. But one weakness i haf is cannot balance tings. Afraid i will slowly lose my frens. But i tink sooner or later oso will not be close. Girlfren. Work. Family. But even then if reali close frens no matter how long oso i'm sure when meet up will be song.

The way i tink, the way i tok, the way i feel wah getting more and more screwed up. Everything oso tink 4 ownself. Bloody balls how can? Cannot balance everytime cannot balance. I noe the way u treat yr family can never be the way u treat yr frens. U see someting wrong in the family u can juz speak yr mind. But wif yr frens? Wah better keep yr mouth shut no matter how good u tink it is 4 the person. 2 reasons. One being the fella might feel insulted. 2nd the fella might not wan to hear yr advice and u get pissed off. The ting is oso u wana see the frens that u care abt be happy.

Juz needed to speak my mind.

[ Servant of God ] | 3:13 AM |

Friday, April 01, 2005

Feel like caving in already. Damm tired. With hospital visits, driving, money problems, unneccessary infatuations. Thank God for keeping me strong. Without You sure gone case. Thank God for the friends he put in my life. Sam. Jeremy. Lobohias. Thanks guys and girl for knowingly or unknowingly helped me.