A simple life?

Sunday, July 31, 2005

Living a double life. Cant separate right from wrong, virtue from vice, lie from truth. How to live liddat? Don't wana lose my family, friends, bros, myself and God. Becoming someone else totally. Away from what i always want i wana be. Damm. U noe dun wana be self conscious but also cannot overdo it if not u duno wad u're doing. Be too self conscious u suddenly become so particular how u look, how others look at u. Dun wana tok abt wads bothering me but overdo it and suddenly u feel like even wif some1 close u cant tok abt it. Tok too much and sometimes u offend others, be too selfcentered and boring.

[ Servant of God ] | 3:43 AM |

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Got reali pissed off when she cancelled the meeting 2day. Guess its been awhile since got last pang sehed. Damm moody the whole day. Got so tired. All dis 4 wad? Juz cos my plans of going out and lobo got ruined? Screw u dom. Reali sorry guys for my attitude the past days. No one owes me aniting. No one deserves to see yr chao bin. Reali la the feeling of everyday juz slacking around and knowing you shud do someting but not doing aniting sux. Have been looking everyday, no job.

Quite saddening today. T asked mummy if one day i choose to be a priest den how. She sae dowan, rather see me as a businessman wif a wife and many kids. LOL. Not say that i am going to be a priest but wif my kind of qualification and attitude, what business? what wife? KIDS!? I dun wana raise a kid who is like me. Ungrateful piece of crap. If i haf a kid liddat i will die.

If the phrase bored to death was reali true, i would be dead right now.

[ Servant of God ] | 11:45 PM |

Thursday, July 21, 2005

U try to take it all away juz when i'm about to get something. U TRY. But u shall not. I won't make the mistake of the past again. I have God with me.

I think i'm going mad.

No matter what must buy my runaways #5 and #6 and spellbinders #4 and #5 next week. I can stay in north for 2 weeks. But i'll go mad! Mad over 4 comics! Aye i oso duno how.

[ Servant of God ] | 2:00 AM |

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Reali hard to find a job suitable for u and u like it. Confident of getting the job today but shit y so bloody weak. If can carry 20kg go liao. Reali felt damm pissed off and down. Pissed off with no one but myself. Buck up man. Dun be such a sloth. Sorry sam and woman gotta take my rubbish.

[ Servant of God ] | 1:28 AM |

Monday, July 11, 2005

Juz a nice girl who wans to help others. Wants to make ppl happy. Get over it man. Treasure this fren of yrs.

[ Servant of God ] | 12:10 AM |

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Someting's not right if i blog so often. Don't feel myself suddenly. Duno y so absent minded. Ppl tell me tings or wad i tell ppl can juz forget instantly. Not onli happen wif one person but wif a few. Am i taking to things too fast and seriously? Better slow down and relax and see how tings go. Its juz this emptiness either coz of nothing to do or coz of u.

[ Servant of God ] | 1:33 AM |

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

2 things i can do. Get myself involved or to totally avoid it. Standstill. A question still unanswered. Getting funny reactions and feelings.

[ Servant of God ] | 11:17 PM |

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Can't stand it. Realised what an ah seah kia i am. Everything oso dowan do everything oso muz rely on ppl to gif me. Can't i be independant, earn my own money, do my own stuff and not juz laze around all day juz waiting for the end of the month for money to come in. Sian of it man. Thank God for waking me up, for opening my mind, eyes and ears.

[ Servant of God ] | 9:27 PM |

Friday, July 01, 2005

Although nothing came out of that day i still gotta thank God, sam, jeremy, jon and woman for all your help. Esp sam and jeremy, following me to get stuffs, wrapping the gift and giving me tons of advice. Without your help monday would have not gone so smoothly. Anyway what was i expecting from you? Shouldn't expect anything.