A simple life?

Sunday, November 20, 2005

When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.
Psalm 94:19/NIV

[ Servant of God ] | 3:44 PM |

Monday, November 14, 2005

不喜歡孤獨　卻又害怕兩個人相處

這分明是一種痛苦

[ Servant of God ] | 4:14 PM |

Friday, November 11, 2005

Late at night can't sleep and u start to think. Think rubbish. Here are some of the rubbish that i thought. I thought of youthful innocence lost. Whatever that means. I thought of why last time friends could sit down and talk cock or if there are problems talk the problem out. Why we could do it so easily last time. Pride and masks taken away. Just conversing and sharing comfortably. Now? I need a few drinks to loosen myself up, cigarettes to accompany me while i already have the company of friends. Even after all this i still can't open up and say what i wana. Low self esteem some say, i say most probably. Blogging even seems to be a problem. Opening up is such a problem now coz of bloody pride or maybe you juz dun have confidence in yourself. There's also this fear. Fear of what i can't figure out. A fear i can point out is hurt. Afraid to be close to others as there's fear of being hurt.

Didn't use to take it seriously or rather juz think nah whats the use when ppl say they will pray for u. Till now. I thank the ppl who pray for me with or without my knowing. Coz i know that it really helps. Tired but can't sleep. Remember the last time you asked someone who wasn't close to you how's it going or rather remember the time you last asked someone how's it going who has a blog? Now everyone has a view of your 'world', they see what's going on in your life, know how you feel about issues, and probably see how much you've changed since the last time you met. Would you rather just let everyone 'see' 'you' on your blog or would you rather let others see you being with you. I admit for some i would rather read whats going on than take the effor to ask the simple question, 'hows it going yo' which might then lead to other questions and a conversation.

I'm sorry if i offended anyone with the above, as i said it was just rubbish.

Good luck to all taking your Os and As! Hang in there, should be ending soon if i'm not wrong. Oh yea, anyone wana watch exorcism of emily rose or harry potter call me k. I promise i won't blabber rubbish to you. :) Feeling better already.