A simple life?

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

The QUIT Smoking Journal.

Part 1

17/8/06

Woke up and went to camp without smoking a single stick! But went to camp feeling like a zombie. Couldn't concentrate on my work and just felt like sleeping the whole morning, which i did! Went out for lunch and took a few puff from my colleague, it felt damm good. Then no more sticks until i came back. Came back smoked about 5 - 6 sticks then went to bed. Realised that i could survive just as well without cigarettes in camp. Its all in the mind.

18/8/06

Smoked 2 sticks before going to camp. Took a cab down today. Felt super relaxed and shiok. Smoked one more after lunch. Then came back and smoked about 3. Realised that i actually do NOT need cigarettes in camp. Its all in the mind. If i want to, i can just forget to smoke. Most smokers have already forgotten what it was like to live without cigarettes. Its become a ritual which is hard to drop. Completed the book The Enlightened Smokers Guide to Quitting. It was good. Provided a new way of viewing smoking and life itself.

Tmr will be a better day!

[ Servant of God ] | 9:28 PM |

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Its so easy to lose yourself, your identity of who you really are in this world. In the enviroment we are in. The people we mix with. The people we work with. I really wana know how do i find myself and who i really am in this kinda situation and stick to it.

I think i shall post this in the lobohia blog. Maybe my bros have something to say. =)

Love you my dear.

[ Servant of God ] | 8:55 PM |

Friday, October 13, 2006

Its been a week since my bro went to tekong.

To me its freaking fast, but i know to him its time is just crawling.

Hang in there bro!

We are all waiting for you to come out!

Jon with hair.

TADA! Jon without hair!

Morning of enlistment. I think we both look blur.

[ Servant of God ] | 2:46 PM |

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Gotta constantly remind myself that i'll be happier next time. I'll be happier next time!

Although it feels like shit now, i'll be happier next time.

No ar i didnt break up with my girlfriend. I'm just trying to quit smoking again. =D

[ Servant of God ] | 12:53 AM |

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Time really flies.

Just last year i was slacking like a no lifer. This year, NS. One of my bro starts school in aussie. Another one going in army this friday and another one is going to graduate from his course soon. Realised an illness i didn't know i have and recovering from it. Realised the little potential i didn't know i have. Just got into a relationship and loving it so far.

I'm just realising that i'm going no where. Not that i have a choice in NS. But realised that without God and an aim in life, it will just be empty and well aimless. I realised that i'm empty and aimless! Even with the best uncle, friends, brothers and girl that i have which i'm very very thankful for, there's still a void that needs to be filled.

Many many more things to say. Another day for another time or something that goes like that.