A simple life?

Monday, June 30, 2008

To Jon and Serena!

The price i quoted you both were too high.

Cut off $100 from the price i quoted you k!

[ Servant of God ] | 8:20 PM |

For Sale!

Pictures and extra information after the pictures!

-> Photography Blog Review - CLICK HERE.

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What will be included in the package.

1) Fujifilm Z100FD 8 megapixel Camera
Condition - 9/10

2)Fujifilm Mini Tripod

3) 1 X Fujifilm Carrying Pouch

4) 1 X Sandisk 2GB MiniSD card.

5) 1X Mini SD card reader

Ok, there's a catch to all this.

As i bought this set from Harvey Norman with a 2 year extended warranty which, which means its a 2 + 1 year warranty which started in 18/1/2008. I'm not sure if the warranty is transferrable as the receipt has my IC number on it, so, if anything does happen to the camera that requires servicing, i might need to follow the person buying to the service centre which i'm prepared to do so.

So i would be selling this only to friends, or friends of friends which i know. That's to make things easier for both parties. :)

I know, i know. HOW MUCH?

Call/SMS/MSN me. =D

No obligations viewing is compulsory. Which means, i want you to play, feel and see the camera before buying. I will try to provide as much information about it as i can.

[ Servant of God ] | 2:58 PM |

Smoking like a chimney,
Eating like a pig,
Luckily, i'm not drinking,
Or i'll be like the merlion.

[ Servant of God ] | 12:24 AM |

Saturday, June 28, 2008

We are broken..
What can we do to restore our innocence?

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Paramore - We Are Broken.

Hm, a picture of a broken porcelien(however you spell it) doll would complete the picture..

[ Servant of God ] | 1:03 PM |

Saturday, June 21, 2008

/Me is chair-ridden.

[ Servant of God ] | 9:38 PM |

Friday, June 20, 2008

Oh, so you tell his psychologist and relatives that, after retiring, you have more time to spend with your son and want to get closer to him..

But, what of the past 20 years of his life? The most crucial part of life, some people say. Where were you? You said you tried to help but because of differences in opinion between the uncle and you, things turned sour.

What about fairness now i ask. Is one supposed to just say that, 'oh ok, let's forget about the past years and be merry now.'

The son is trying his best to put up with your calls, your requests to meet up, your requests to be in the sessions with his psychologist and even the suggestion of changing his doctor whom he has gotten along so well with.

You say, ' I want you to be successful, I want you to lead life everyday happily.' Notice that is always what you want. You've never asked me what I want. Not that i don't want to be successful and lead life happily everyday, but its what success and happiness means to me that you don't know.

What i feel is that, you want to have a say in things and ok, let's put it in a nicer way, be part of your son's life, with the money you have. I think that you know and i know that the money you have has put you in control of some aspects of your family's life. That's because of the money you have.

Hm, you can say my paranoia is working up again. But, what i feel is that, yes, you want to be closer to your son. But, you want him to do what YOU want. That's not so right, isn't it?

Let's talk about something you just told him. 'I want you to stop taking medicine, you're so young, you shouldn't be taking so many medicine. There is so many things out there to see.'

You think your son wants to take medicine? The way you put it gives him the idea that you are just not happy with him spending your money on the medicine and doctor consultation he requires.

Know this, your son hates to be on medication and seeing the doctor so regularly. It has been hell for him when the negative effects of the medicine shows up. Why does he still take the medicine then? Its in the hope that it would get him better. He is willing to put up with the side effects for awhile to see if the medicine helps.

Now, but now. What do you want him to do? Change to another doctor and restart the whole cycle again. Do you know what he has to go through? Another round of testing medications to see which one suits him. Another round of talking about those unhappy moments to another doctor. Another round of side effects. Its a full cycle again.

The son is willing to do it, for he hopes to get well. Just a few things, what if your son has to be on medication the rest of his life? Are you willing to accept that? What if your son, because of the chemical imbalance in his brain, can't be that successful person you picture him to be? Are you willing to accept that? What if your son, because of the years that you've never played a part in his life, decided that enough is enough and even though he can forgive you for the hurt you've caused him and his closed ones decide that he doesn't want to have anything to do with you anymore? How will you accept that?

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The son is tired from all this thinking and typing. He needs to rest.

[ Servant of God ] | 4:01 PM |

Monday, June 16, 2008

Its frustrating when you just can't relax even though you did try to burn away your energy.

Went swimming in the morning. Ok, i slept for over an hour in the afternoon. In the evening, went with my uncle, maid and rocky to pasir ris park to walk.

Tried lying down and just rest, but, bahh, still no peace.

So i'm here, with headphones on, a can of green tea infront of me, a cigarette is going to be lit soon and just feeling frustrated.

Pray, pray that you or anyone you know don't experience this. From my experience, it really sucks to the core.

I need more social activity than i am having now.

I have mixed feelings about school.

I look forward to it as it means i have something to do and i'm doing something i like.

I don't look forward to it as i'm afraid history will just repeat itself, whereby, in the start, i'll be very enthu then, coming to the end, i just let everything fall apart.

I'm afraid i can't pay attention.

I'm afraid it will be too stressful.

But, why be afraid when it hasn't come, we'll tackle it when the problem arises, no?

Yes.

[ Servant of God ] | 11:15 PM |

Sunday, June 15, 2008

It's starting all over again.

Like how it was 2 years and a probably a couple of months back.

Paranoia, insecurity, uncertainty, and fear haunts me.

An hour of this paranoia is like a year of suffering.

It doesn't only affect me. It has affected the people closest to me.

I suffer, they suffer.

I have asked why.

I don't know the exact answer.

All i believe is that something can be learnt of this and i will be made stronger by Him.

By giving me the test, He has already given me the tools to pass it.

Oh, but, oh, it feels so torturous.

I probably understand when they said "Life's a living hell."

I'm sorry if i caused any of you hurt or confusion or anything bad by my actions, lack of it or the words that came out of my mouth.

I'm just trying very hard to not be paranoid.

But, oh, it comes.. It comes and hits me like a thundering wave.

Then, the damage was not entirely done to the person. But to the people closest to him.

It hurts the person to see his closest hurt.

He doesn't want it to happen, but, it just does. No matter how hard he tries to control.

He must see his doctor.

First thing Monday.

Jesus, give me strength like i've asked you in my prayers..

[ Servant of God ] | 1:21 AM |

Saturday, June 14, 2008

I'M BORED.

=D

[ Servant of God ] | 4:40 PM |

The anger, the frustation, the uncertainty inside just keeps building and is waiting to be released.

Don't ask me what i'm angry or frustrated about as i don't know.

I wish i knew.

I'm in the hermit mode.

I know i need the company but i purposely push it away. Why? Why do i do so? I seriously fucking don't know. I wish i knew.

I'm not going to take this lightly, i want to just say BAH and push it to the corner of my mind, but, i feel i'm just running away and pushing whatever that's bothering me till it decides to haunt me again.

BAH.

[ Servant of God ] | 12:55 AM |

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Highlights of
Zoo trip on 09/06/08.

[ Servant of God ] | 8:10 PM |

João Gilberto - Considered the Father of Bossa Nova. - Source

Bossa was started in Brazil in 1958 by João Gilberto, who was the then husband of Astrud Gilberto - Source

Stan Getz - Another Bossa artist who passed away of liver cancer in 1991 and had drug addictions. - Source

Astrud Gilberto - Former wife of João Gilberto. - Source

BAHHH. That rounds up my research on Bossa. A genre which i enjoy alot nowadays.

You know how bored i am huh. =p

[ Servant of God ] | 6:08 PM |

My camera's spoilt.

Apparently, the circuit board was short circuited by my battery grip. HUH? Like how did that happen man.

Anyway, shot those 2 before my camera decided to spoil.

Hope the camera can be repaired by today and then, more product shots!

Bahh, the weather's no good for swimming. If it becomes more sunny, i'll probably go later in the afternoon.

So.. on the to do list today would be -

1) Change the damm green fish water.

2) Cut hair.

3) Collect camera if its ready.

4) Swim if the weather's good.

5) Play game for awhile if i feel like it.

I need new musiccccc.

Check out Paramore if you guys are free. They're good!

Zoo on monday was fun but the pictures were disappointing. BAHHH.

Soo.. IT fair tomorrow. Shall go down and take a look! :D

Have a great Wednesday people!

[ Servant of God ] | 12:19 PM |

Monday, June 09, 2008

If the weather holds up, it will be zoo in about 10 hours time!

Can't wait!

Shoot and just forget the troubles for those moments.

Listen and just forget about them too.

[ Servant of God ] | 1:17 AM |

Sunday, June 08, 2008

Another flower for you.

Thanks for always being there to listen to the nonsense i talk.

Love you.

[ Servant of God ] | 3:14 AM |

Bummed.

Disappointed.

Frustrated.

Yea, that's about what i've been feeling the whole day till now.

BAHH.

[ Servant of God ] | 2:28 AM |

Friday, June 06, 2008

The game is a disappointment compared to even the 1st version of it on the PS2.

Nonetheless, its still PLAYABLE. Just not as fun as the previous versions.

Bahh woke up at 1PM today.. Now that wasn't the plan. The plan was to wake up at 10am. BAHH. Never mind, tomorrow is a new day.

Its the weekend people! Enjoy yourselves!

[ Servant of God ] | 3:42 PM |

Thursday, June 05, 2008

I thought there was a IT fair in Singapore this week, but, its actually in Taiwan. LOL.

Sorry Sam, the HDD will have to wait unless you don't wana wait for a fair ya.

Slowly learning to trust.. To really open up my heart and just trust.

Hope to be able to stick to my timetable!

Goodnight.

[ Servant of God ] | 1:21 AM |

Monday, June 02, 2008

BUSY BUSY BUSY BEEEEE.