A simple life?

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

I'm.Fucking.Tired.

And why i am blogging at this hour then?

I can't get to sleep with this restlessness and anxiety i'm feeling.

Having a slight cold doesn't help either.

I realized that i applied for leave of absence in my letter only for yesterday.

Knn.

Whatever it is, i'm not going to school.

Not in this state.

Penang was gooood.

First time there without family.

First time there with my girlfriend.

It was fucking hot though, and the room was rather cold.

Kinda explains the cold i'm having.

A Geog retest next Monday, 2 blog posts for Geog due too.

1 Economics video to be made.

2 Essays to be done.

3 more Maths assignments to go.

Plenty of topics more to cover for every subject.

And guess what, i went straight to my folder for school in Windows Explorer when i wanted to look for a picture to upload.

@#$#@%

The momentum for school kinda stopped after the holiday.

I think i haven't enjoyed myself this much since school started.

Pictures soon to follow in FB once i develop them!

Yeap, develop them.

I didn't bring my SLR along for the trip, but rented a Blackbird,fly and a Holga for Karen.

Hope the pictures turn out fine.

[ Servant of God ] | 3:06 AM |

Monday, March 15, 2010

Thank you for all of you.

This will be one of the first morbid posts after many months.

Its the start of my 3rd week at school.

I can't say it has been slow moving but i can't say it sped by either.

Its been quite stressful for me since like one week before the start of school.

Thinking how will i do, having to adapt to a whole new lifestyle of full time studies and balancing my priorities.

School syllabus hasn't been a breeze for me.

I was arrogant and silly to think it would be before term started.

I'm having 5 modules this semester.

Maths, English, Geography, Communications Across Culture and Econs.

English, Communications and Econs are manageable.

Maths and Geog are killing me, both mind and spirit.

I go into these 2 lectures struggling to keep up with what's being taught in lectures, i struggle with tutorials and i fear for my exams.

I dare say, the starting of this new school term is the only time i regretted not paying attention in Secondary school.

Regret aside, i'm just trying to do what i can to understand and grasp the subjects better.

Its only very frustrating that after a day of school and reaching home at 4.30, i am more often than not dead tired for any productive revision.

I just came home from downstairs hoping to be able to complete my geog revision but couldn't do it. This experience of revising and writing notes but still not able to absorb anything is so fucking fucked up.

Anyhow, i thank God for giving me the classmates i have now in school. It would be so much worse if they were as fucked up as my mind is now.

Thoughts of giving up psychology and changing to a new course altogether has crossed my mind several times.

I wouldn't go as far to say that being a psychologist is my only purpose.